I lay my head down

The best slow death
Waking up in that cold sweat
Wondering where I have been
The cancer eating me
From the inside out
The cloudy haze only dulls
The quick witted
Blending night and day
Part of me never letting go
Another part gave up long ago
I lay my head and close my eyes
A dream without sorrow
Life does  not care
If you are happy or sad
If you have made good choices or bad
Life is the best leukemia to have
Searching for perfection well spent
Searching for the unattainable
A happiness gone unrealized
Already something else before found
A long line of  the rejected
I lay my head down to sleep
Thinking I will do a repeat
And the day is already gone

kissing perfection

kissing the horizon 

walking the tight rope 

to a uncertain future

the sun speaks

the sun speaks to me

in that silent way

sunshine reflecting off the waves

telling their stories 

eight minutes old

wind just loud enough

to drown out humanity

calm tranquility

a motorbike

fires up

a distraction for a second or two

silence calms the soul

as the waves sing that lullaby
the sun speaks
silently to me
reflecting off the waves
wind just loud enuogh
to drown  the murmur of humanity
slashing waves sing a lullaby

the darkness

Amputated

The future robbed

Experience comes in sporadic servings

I understood the rawness of the dark

How some profit from deceit and violence

The banality of life

It eats at your dreams

The presence of sadness

That never ends

You can't return unharmed

The injustice of silence

 A noble soul that wants to escape

The corruption of realistic solutions

The desperate darkest of brutal industries

The future robbed

Experience comes in sporadic servings

I understood the rawness of the dark

How some profit from deceit and violence

The banality of life

It eats at your dreams

The presence of sadness

That never ends

You can't return unharmed

The injustice of silence

 A noble soul that wants to escape

The corruption of realistic solutions

The desperate darkest of brutal industries